If you haven’t seen the movie or read the book. Please do!
“i loved you on purpose
i was open on purpose
And even though it didn’t seem like it I did. With scars and open wounds. I made that decision. And I was to face the consequences. Maybe for you it was the first day you saw me, for me it took a while. I know what hasty decisions can feel like but still it would seem that ‘after loving you assiduously for 8 months 2 wks & a day’ it was a hasty decision. And I am reminded of your words ‘ I don’t care if you open to me.. if two days later you will break up with me’ in the midst of loving you and crying at the same god damn time!
i still crave vulnerability & close talk
yet now I am rendered useless to another.
& i’m not even sorry bout you bein sorry
you can carry all the guilt & grime ya wanna
just dont give it to me
Don’t you dare blame this on me. Its too much of an insult to carry along with knowing you were going to be a memory but carrying on anyway. And of course I had my part to play and youre not even sorry. I just don’t know you anymore.
i cant use another sorry
next time
you should admit
you’re mean/ low-down/ triflin/ & no count straight out
and the truth is no matter how bad a picture I paint of you in my head, my hearts knows the different. So maybe you were telling lies and maybe you were truthful, even either what remains is I loved.
steada bein sorry alla the time
enjoy bein yrself”
enjoy the sunshine you have. You would never have to feel my cold again.
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf
“Through my tears
I found god in myself
and I loved her fiercely”
― Ntozake Shange
They fell like racing cars in Indianapolis 500. Like I was going for the some-what-promised-prize. Like it ever meant a thing to you. So in the midst of my tears for you but really they were mine. I can no longer give you that honour.
Its not worth that.
I found a God who bleeds like me.
And in finding that, I loved me(Him) with every scar WE caused.
It seems throwing everything out only worked for the things you bought.
sarah fynn 