THIS PICTURE

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It’s true
Just mentions of the places we have been to together triggers emotions
I wonder how it’s been so long and I am still locked in place like a lock and key model from science at GCSE
It’s that time of the night
Where whispers of my past interrupt with my thoughts for the future
3am knows all my secrets. My pressure points and weaknesses
struggling to see by my laptop light as i write these tears in my journal.
It’s the usual
how and why did I cause myself so much pain?

4am
Dig deeper.
Forget how useful the branches look and get to the root.

He was my sin, a pain I once loved and held on too dearly
Difficult to swallow- take responsibility for your part

 

His interlude
2.45am

Did I love her?
Or was she just accessible and readily available

Was it love?

Or a mere like because I was fascinated by her

A high school crush like feeling been experience now that I am in university

She was different from the rest

And I was draw to that not really understanding it or stopping to think if I could handle it

4.30am her

Sarah it’s time to lay to rest

Yh it was real nice

But the devil wears Prada

And boy did it look good

Got you thinking don’t it

You aint no victim

Release the pain and let healing flow

Rest will come if you sit by still waters

He’s waiting. Go on up

Christ compels you.

 

Last year I learnt about heartbreak that left me gasping for the very air I breathe

Taking me higher and leaving me breathless whilst still tryna perform CPR on me

And in this year I found love

And loves shaped as a cross

And it’s coloured red

And I can’t believe I was standing in his presence asking for love but accepting a cheap imitation of it elsewhere

 

THE END?!

its the 24th of Decemeber so i should start with this

MERRY CHRISTMAS

lol.. ok so that’s out of the way and the real reason for this post, well 3 main reasons

 

firstly, its the end of semster 1 for me and i must say it was challenging! it was great fun to see me placed in a whole new environment, away from my comfort zone and watch how i would cope. i barely made it here however i still made it, whether crawling or standing. this semster for me has been tough- spiritually, emotionally and academically. been challenged in every area everywhere i go. ad i meanthat literally! i have met some amazing people, who have impacted in my life in such a short while. i have also had to say goodbye to some people who still impacted my life but for the greater good some connections had to be cut. i hope the new people are ones to stay for longer especially some friends who has helped me in diverse ways. already. PHEW!

secondly, its almost the end of the year 2011 and i must say GLORY TO BE THE LAMB. WHAT!!!  there is a saying that goes ‘ if you have seen anything you cant say anything@ ( or something of the sort LOOOL) but this year? nah i think i will leave it till the manifestations of seeds take place. but all i can say is WOW.

thirdly and quite importantly my hair journey. i started the transition from relaxed hair to natural and in April and i really didnt think i would take it seriously then. i thought it was just  phrase i was going to go through but eight months now the line and am still transitioning. NO WAIT. I BCed!!!! ( big chop for y’all who dont understand. bascially i cut my hair LOOL) oh gosh…. i have so much growth underneath them relaxed hair that when i cut it, i was surprise at it…

hair journery

relaxed hair

 

july. 4 months

 

4 months

 

5 months

 

6 months

 

7 months

 

and 8 months? BC!!! the end of my transitioning journey!!!! pictures

what am working with

 

growth

 

getting there anndddddddddddddddddddd

 

THE FINAL LOOK AND HAIR NOW

 

OK SO THAT ME WITH MY HAIR NOW AND ACCORDING TO A FRIEND I LOOK LIKE A TWO YEAR OLD! LOOOL. my journey has been amazing… i learnt a lot of new things and not to mention the amazing people i interviewed for my everyday inspiration series! the new products i have tried and some am still waiting to try. the people that tried to get me to keep relaxing my hair, the people that dared me to and the people that encouraged me, to y’all thank u!!!!!

so 8 months and am done with transitioning now its time to focus on growing my natural hair to my desired lenght which is breast lenght (lool) . and i guess i have to feature myself on my series now? hm! but thts another day… anyways from me to you

 

GOOD NIGHT AND HAVE YOURSELF A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS……..

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